Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Today was really bizarre, but here it is;
M1 : Yogurt and berries, coffee
M2: 3 egg whites (hard boiled)
M3: chicken breast and steam veggies
M4: missed it!! oops
M5: whole wheat pasta with veggie sauce (I didn't have time to cook meat along with it, as we were heading to the gym).
The gym - well my 12-year-old niece is here with us for a few days, and as the daycare is closed until the New Year, it has ben difficult for Craig and I to go to the gym together (Tosca really stresses the importance of working out with a buddy). So, we've been taking advantage of the family swim times instead, and taking turns doing our workouts.
Well, Hannah really wanted us to "All" be in the pool together, so I dropped Craig off at the gym first (he wasn't ready for a meal anyhow) and made dinner for the rest of us. Then we headed to the gym about 1.5 hours later. Craig joined us in the pool, and we were there for an hour. I stayed in the deep end for 45 minutes, while I dove, swam and treaded water. I kept moving to keep my heart rate up.
At the end, Craig took the kids home and I continued my workout. Let me tell you, trying to workout after swimming was HARD!! I did 10 minutes on the bike (very hard, mind you), 5 minutes rowing, 1/2 an hour working out my legs, and 10 minutes on the treadmill. I could only run for 2 minutes tonight, I was just so tired!!
Moral of the story....plan ahead, and try not to workout after swimming...your muscles will thank you! ;-)
Monday, December 29, 2008
Anyhow, today I decided to look for some recent and not-so-recent pictures of me. Almost a before and after. It literally took me an hour to find the "before" picture posted below. The reason? Well, like many overweight women, I don't like the way I look. Therefore, I am always behind the lens (I am a photographer after all), or i'm being goofy and giving a fake smile to the camera. More often than not, I delete all photos of me. Again...it took me an hour to find one picture of me on our computer. This one must have slipped by my delete-happy finger.
So here it is, an almost full length picture of me, at my heaviest, taken in March of this year. It really brings to perspective just why I chose to change our lives by following the Eat Clean Diet. I have had many ups and downs, but the fact is that I am down 39 pounds since this photo was taken, and 24 pounds down since starting to Eat Clean. I was able to lose 15 pounds somewhere along the line from March to September, by doing bits of cardio here and there at the gym. But the 24 pounds is from September to December is all from eating clean. 15 pounds in 6 months, versus 24 pounds in three months....i'm no mathematician here, but I think eating clean is the way to go!
Here is the picture I took of myself today. It's a raw photo, which is what I wanted. It's me, without makeup, without a fancy hairdo, and just using a small flash. It's as real as I could get it. I'm wearing spandex...yikes, and not much on top. I was going to do a sports bra, but this is as brave as I could get. I couldn't get the same angle, as all my photography equipment was out in the garage, and it's cold out, and I wasn't changing again! HA! So, this was done without a tripod, and the photo above has the better angle...believe it or not. So again, it's a raw photo that I took of me today, and i'm proud that I posted it. It will be great to compare it to my future sexy photos!!
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Last week I made a few self discoveries that have really helped with my image issues. I have realized that i'm actually a good person, and that I deserve to be happy. So, instead of sabatoging myself when i'm down, I am looking to find a healthy habit to replace the drug that, until recently, helped ease whatever emotional pain I was in...food. I'm going to start with walking for 10 minutes or however long it takes for the feeling to go away. Walking will let me sort out the problem, and I might still be upset without having found a solution, but at least I won't be turning to food.
With that said, I have been diligently following the clean diet and have been continuing with my exercise regime. I actually love exercising. The fabulous feeling I get afterwards is something I always look forward to.
This past weekend was a girl's weekend with my friends Nancy, Andrea, Laura and Trina. These girls have known me since I was 14, and they have all known each other since grade school. The weekend usually involves copious amounts of food and alcohol. I promised myself not to have more than two glasses of wine, and I actually stuck to that promise. The red wine was one that I had never tasted before, and it was delicious. After the second glass, I was feeling more than a little tipsy, and there was a moment where I really wanted a third glass. Nancy promised to look out for me, and even said that she would drink the rest of the bottle, so I wouldn't have the third glass! But something inside me kept saying "no" to the third glass, and i'm pretty sure I heard Tosca yelling at me, saying she would kick my butt if I did.
The food was delicious. Nancy made a wonderful spread. She showed us how to take rice paper, put it in hot water to make it soft, and then use it as a wrap. I had chicken, and all sorts of veggies in mine...with hot sauce. It was wonderful!! And so easy to do!
The next day Andrea and Trina left early as they had family duties to get back to. Nancy, Laura and I had a light breakfast and we decided to head to the cemetary to have a visit with Laura's mom and my dad. I haven't been back to the cemetary since we had the burial ceremony. That was over 10 years ago. I was afraid that it would be to hard, and I didn't want to deal with those feelings. But i'm so glad that I went. I feel like a big weight was lifted off my shoulders, and I wish I did it years ago. I will go as often as I can, and I will take the kids the next time I go.
All in all, it was a very good week. Emotionally draining, but we all need to have weeks like this to regroup with our inner beings.
Cheers to all who come across this!
Monday, November 3, 2008
So, an update. I was accepted into the Ontario Self Employment Benefits program, and am currently in week 2, of 7 weeks of business training (how to start your own business, and market it, and get financing, and and and). There is a lot of information to take in, and i'm sitting in a class room for 5-8 hours Monday to Friday.....my body is NOT used to being idle like this. It's very hard to concentrate after awhile!
Last week started out good, but the closer it got to Halloween, and the more unorganized I became, the stress in me was ready to come out. I was so worried about Halloween, and afraid that I would just gorge myself on the kid's candy, that I never really got to enjoy the night. I spoke with Tosca beforehand, and we discussed what to do with the candy. We basically decided that we would get rid of at least have of the kid's candy, giving it to those in need. I called around, and shelters cannot take loose candy items, so I ended up giving it to the cast of Cats (the show that the theatre group I belong to is putting on right now). Hannah loved the show, and was delighted that the cast was happily eating her candy. How's that for a generous kid?
Nick, Hannah and I went through their candy, and they each picked 25 pieces to keep in their Halloween bags. This was to last them 3 weeks, with one candy a day, but some has been "disappearing", and it won't make it to the three weeks. Little sneaks!! heh
As for me, I did have a few little chocolate bars, but I would say that I have eaten about 5 per cent of what I would normally have eaten in the past. It used to be a free-for-all in the past, and now I was able to have a couple, and leave the rest. Pat on the back for that one!
Today I had yogurt, mixed with bee pollen and Kashi cereal. Yum!!! I need to add fruit to that next time. The pasta tonight with ground turkey and roasted veggie sauce was sooo yummy too. Mmmmmm!
I'm starting classes at the gym in the morning (6:15 a.m. ... ugh), twice a week. Craig started a boxing class tonight, and just about died!! I guess it's my turn tomorrow. I'll write about it soon!
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Craig and I decided that we would have a "Clean" party, meaning that all the foods we were serving were part of our new healthy diet. We had chicken fingers (in rolled oats, flax seed and wheat germ), sweet potato fries, ground turkey baked ziti, and more. I was surprised at how much our guests enjoyed the food. OH!! Craig was sick, and I started to prepare the food on my own...I didn't get very far, and made Hannah get him out of bed. I just got stressed, and I couldn't figure out how to make the hummus in my Magic Bullet! LOL.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Here's what my Thanksgiving meal consisted of:
1 tablespoon cranberry sauce (jarred, full of sugar)
1 tablespoon of dressing (white bread)
1 tablespoon of garlic mashed potatoes (skim milk, no butter)
4 sweet potato fries (from Tosca's book)
1 slice of apple pie that my daughter and DH made with whole wheat crust, and filling made with Sucanut (sp?) instead of sugar
AVOIDED: gravy, salt, ice cream, pumpkin pie, bread and butter.
It was amazing to see parts of my plate that are normally covered (read: my plate is usually piled high on Thanksgiving).
Friday, October 10, 2008
Anyhow, Helen Tansey was very nice, and made us all feel welcome. She brought out some good smiles on our faces, and I gritted my teeth through it all. Someday I really do hope that I'll be able to smile at a camera, and mean it inside and out.
Newsflash! Today is weigh in day, and i'm down 8 pounds! Hooray! Only a billion more to go...oops, there goes that negative talk again. Try to say something positive. I lost 8 pounds....think of what that looks like....wow, that's a lot! Things are fitting better...more good news!
Hannah is still grudgingly following the Eat Clean way, but is missing her comfort food. But she was very happy to have had pizza today for lunch. It was made with low-fat mozza, rice flour crust, no sugar added sauce, and the crust was nice and thin. It was delicious, and almost felt like we were cheating, and yet all the ingredients are good ones. Yay! What I don't know is what kind of oil was used, but i'm going to guess that it was Olive, or some other good for you oil....it was that kind of place.
Craig made us some yummy veggie egg white omelettes (with one egg yolk to I think 4 eggs), and we had the pizza. Not sure what is on the menu for tonight though. Hannah is very excited, as she will be Little Chef and helping Big Chef (Daddy) make the apple pie for Thanksgiving.
Off to see what Old Mother Hubbard has in her cupboard for dinner. xo
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Saturday we always start our day with getting ready for Hannah's dance class. She is slowly embracing the clean eating way, and decided on her own to have fruit for breakfast. While Hannah is in class, we go out for breakfast with our friend Gerald. It's become a bit of a tradition, so it was our first time trying to eat clean, while at a restaurant.
I ordered a Spanish omelette, and asked for it to be made with egg whites only. It came with whole wheat toast and home fries. Nick at the home fries and toast (I had one triangle). Nick had fruit before we left as well, so I wasn't too worried about the few home fries he did have.
Craig had a regular omelette with cheese and mushrooms. Craig is not a fan of eggs at all, so getting him to eat some is good. The cheese wasn't the best idea, but it's still a change from pancakes and syrup with ham (also loaded with syrup) and toast.
After dance class, Hannah was still feeling energetic, and wanted to do something outside. Nick was fast asleep in the car (he got up waaay too early), and we knew that he would stay asleep for a few hours. So Hannah thought it would be fun if she and Craig...oops, I mean, Daddy, went for a bike ride. They got out the bikes, and tuned them up and rode for about 15 minutes. Then Hannah came back in the house, and Craig went for a ride on his own!!! First time in months....and it was well over a year before that one time! He felt great!
I knew that I would be getting some exercising dancing at our community theatre fundraiser, so I wasn't worried that I stayed behind with Nick. And Nick...well, he finds ways throughout the day to be active. He constantly runs!
Below are pics of Craig and Hannah getting ready to go for their bike ride;
On Sunday we did our first Clean grocery shopping. It was great to figure out what to buy and how it will improve our health and weight loss. Craig and I could have spent all day there (and we almost did), but we had a date to go apple picking in the afternoon with the kids. The kids LOVED picking apples, and Hannah was very excited to go home and make applesauce with Daddy.
Here are some pics from apple picking;
See my apple mommy?
Finding apples, and hiding from Mommy!
After we went apple picking, we headed home, and we were all tuckered out from running around the orchard. Craig, Nick and Hannah made applesauce, and we had a yummy dinner made by Craig of whole wheat rotini, chicken breast over baby spinach leaves covered in home made pasta sauce with lots of veggies. Hannah opted to not have the pasta sauce, but came back for seconds for chicken and baby spinach. A very fun day!
Monday was pretty low key. Craig wasn't feeling well. We had leftovers for dinner, and Nick, Hannah and I went out for a walk. We were gone for about 45 minutes, and a lot of the walk was actual running, as we were playing "tag" on the way back. Tonnes of fun! Later on in the evening Craig was violently ill, and passed out. He hit his head on the way down, and woke up to me screaming for him to open the bedroom door (he was blocking it). It was very scary, but all is good. Telehealth called an ambulance, and they checked his vitals and spoke to him. Since he was coherent, and able to relay everything that happened, we decided not to go to the hospital. We think he had food poisining, and that it was possibly from grapes that he ate and didn't wash beforehand. No one else has been sick (today is Wednesday), and hopefully it will stay that way!
Yesterday was another low key day. I had a meeting in the evening, and Hannah (who is being weaned off naps) fell asleep at 6:30. Craig was just getting back on solids, so he had bits of food here and there. Nick ate whatever clean food he fancied.
And that brings us to today!
This morning I had oatmeal with bee pollen and applesauce (homemade, of course). I loved it. Adding the applesauce to it, is sooo much nicer! It was also my first time with bee pollen. The texture was something I have to get used to, but doing the research on bee pollen, I can't believe the wonders it does! What an amazing supplement! I am hoping that it helps with my PMS, and migraines. But hey, to aide weight loss is another bonus!
I did 30 minutes on the Wii fit today, and broke out into a nice sweat. That Advanced Boxing is HARD! It's raining today, so i'm not sure what activity the family will do tonight! Tune in!
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Hannah enjoyed some hummus and carrots today, and is drinking more water than she normally would. When she was on the phone with her grandmother today she said that, "We aren't having any sugar stuff anymore, because it's not healthy. So, no buns with dinner please and no dessert." I just have to teach her that there are other desserts out there that are yummy, not just ice cream. LOL
Hannah and Craig went for a bike ride together. Hannah didn't last more than 10 minutes, but she did have dance class this morning, so i'm happy with that. Nick and I didn't participate, as Nick fell asleep early today, and I stayed home with him. I will be movin' and groovin' tonight at an event for our theatre group. Now I must plan our food for the rest of the day!
Friday, October 3, 2008
I recently found out that I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes, high blood pressure and high cholesteral. I'm only 35, and i'm now taking more pills than I ever thought possible.
About a month ago, I heard that there was a production company looking for a family with young children who would like to better their eating habits, get more active, and generally change their lives for the better. I thought that this was an excellent opportunity for our family, and emailed right away a description of our family. I described that we are a family of four with very poor eating habits, and very little activity done as a family.
We went for an audition, and they chose us!! The show will be called "Tosca", and it is based on her Eat Clean Diet. Tosca's written many books about eating clean, and we, as a family, are up for the task. We met Tosca today, and filmed our first meeting where she went through our kitchen and threw out our "unclean" foods (filling one HUGE garbage bag), and she went over what we will be doing, what kinds of food we will eat etc. She also listened to our stories of our childhood through to adulthood, and how far back our weight problems went.
Mine started during puberty. I went through puberty at an early age, and I believe I used food to deal with my emotions of being teased by the other kids (boys always tease girls, but it was the teasing from other girls that hurt the most). I promptly learned to put on a happy face, even if I wasn't feeling it on the inside. I knew that food was always there for me, and thus, my pattern of binge eating started.
I have tried many diets, from Weight Watchers to the Cabbage Soup Diet. Weight Watchers did work, but it was combined with doing intense spinning classes 5 days a week. Now, with two small children, life is pretty hectic to head off to the gym to hop on a bike. So Tosca said to start slow, with a half an hour of exercise per day. Not too much to ask. AND the whole family must be involved. So, after Tosca left, we went for a walk and played in the park. We did get a nice workout in, and the best part of it all was Hannah saying it was the BEST day ever! As much as i'm doing this for me, i'm also doing this for my children. Hannah is quickly following in our poor eating footsteps, and she is now considered overweight. I CANNOT let her be unhealthy...it leads to being unhappy. Already she has mentioned that she would like to be skinny like her brother. That just breaks my heart.
So, with that all said, we start our clean eating today.....leading to our new, healthy, happier life!